One Last Goodbye 1 of 2
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angelbutterflySummary:Dean takes a little trip while he is in the West to see an old 'friend' one last time. Will it change the future, change what was meant to be?
Chapter 1: Reunion
It wasn't anything he really planned but it had been in the back of Dean's mind when he suggested this little trip in time. Enough so that he grabbed all the ingredients needed to summon Loki, enough so that the moment Sam was gone, Dean performed the ritual. For one moment in time being selfish as to leave the potential victims of the phoenix unguarded. Dean needed to do this, needed to risk all to do this. To warn the one being he had loved without duty or reserve. The one death Dean would be willing to sacrifice everything for, even the only way to kill Eve. For Gabriel, Dean would gladly allow the world to die. If only to see him one more time, even if Dean can't save him from Lucifer. Just to see him again one last time would be enough, would be worth it. To have a chance to say goodbye.
Dean knew better than to tell Sam that or even think it when he had been in Cas's presence though as both would have stopped him. And at this point, Dean doesn't truly care what either one of them thinks. Sam, well as much as it pains him Dean can admit that they will never be as they were before Ruby, before Hell. There will always be something separating them, this last year with Robo!Sam didn't help it any and Dean is willing to accept it. Sam isn't the brother he raised and never will be again, to much had changed. As for Castiel.
Cas hadn't been the same since Lucifer killed him and Dean isn't entirely sure what to do about it anymore. He had allowed Cas into his bed and into his heart to a certain degree but he doesn't trust him, not like he once had. The fact that on occasion Balthazar shared their bed just made it all the more..odd. Dean knew that Cas was keeping a huge thing from him, probably something that would destroy what they had and when it was time, when Dean learned it..He would have to decide how to react. How to either kill Cas or forgive him and sadly as time passed them by and still Cas didn't tell him, Dean feared there would be no true choice. Only death and it terrifies Dean so much so that for the first time in his life he doesn't demand the truth from Cas.
Performing the ritual, Dean waited for Gabriel to show up. Knowing that it would only be a matter of time, that while the ritual could not force Gabriel to appear but that curiosity would see Gabriel come. That after so long someone was summoning 'Loki', it would surprise Gabriel enough to come. It only took an hour for Gabriel to show up or rather Loki. For looking at him, Dean knew it was Loki and not Gabriel before him. The side of Gabriel that he had rarely if ever allowed Dean to see. The side of himself that he had been forced to become to hide from Heaven, the side that he eventually began to enjoy. Filled with rage, blood-lust and never ending hunger.The Pagan side and Gabriel didn't let Dean see it for fear that it would drive Dean away. And while Dean wasn't comfortable with it, he accepted it as a part of his lover. Accepted that once Gabriel had eaten humans accepted sacrifice, had behaved like a pagan god. He wasn't happy with it but he accepted.
"Well, what have we here? A mortal that wants to play with Gods, now that is either incredibly brave of you or foolish. You are one.....WHAT?"Dean felt the familiar Grace of his lover touching him, his body and soul. Feeling him, finding the truth."Now isn't that interesting. A time travel and by an Angel's hand at that. I assume its for a very interesting reason as time is not something to be trifled with, even by Heaven's standards. And such a long way...Your soul, your blood.....Your of the Line. Your...The Righteous Man." Gabriel breathed out those three words as he stiffened, faced with the future reality of his brothers battle. Michael's Vessel was standing before him, a century early."You know who I am, don't you?"
Dean nodded as he approached Gabriel, not stopping until the entire lengths of their bodies are touching. Making them as one as they can be with clothes on and soul/Grace not touching. Dean quietly whispered the words, to overwhelmed to anything else,"You are Gabriel, Archangel, Messenger and left-hand of God...You are Mine. My lover....And I have missed you so much."Dean grasped Gabriel's face and devoured his mouth, kissing him with almost two years of bent-up passion. Neither Lisa or Castiel could ever match up to the passion, the desire and..love that was between the two of them. They paled in comparsion even though he loved them both. After a moment of hesitation, Gabriel kissed back and felt the echoes of his Grace in him. And that of another Angel but nowhere near strong enough to be Michael's. It was not yet time for Michael to take him then.
Gabriel wasn't sure what he was doing as he stripped the Right... quick look in his mind, Dean of all his clothes and lowered him to the ground but he did not care. He had never intended to take one of the Vessel's as lover, only intended to check them out when it was time. Yet he obviously had taken Dean to bed and was doing so again and couldn't bring himself to care. While Dean was just desperate to feel Gabriel as he knew they didn't have time, soon he'd have to get back. Deal with the phoenix if it was still here, explain to Sam if it wasn't and all before the 24 hours were up. So little time."Hush, little one.I've stopped time. Not about to be interrupted by a sibling while doing this. Not even seconds will go by for what I plan to take hours. Now pay attention to me."Gabriel then began to lick his way done Dean's body and all Dean could do was moan.
Especially when Gabriel took Dean's cock into his mouth and showed him that a century did not make him a better lover. He was just a great lover whenever and wherever. After making Dean have a screaming orgasm, Gabriel crawled up his body and kissed him. Sharing his taste between them. Then with a snap, Dean was hard again but this time he had no intention of just laying there and 'think of England.' He wanted to make Gabriel scream, a not so easy task. To do so though he needed to get on top and unlike his Gabriel, Dean doubted he could just ask and be granted it. So he set about to surprise him by grabbing one of his wings and stroking the glands between the feathers.All of which caused Gabriel to arch almost completely off him and to shout in both shocked surprise and pleasure.
"You can see and touch my wings.Boy are you one hell of a surprise, kiddo." Dean grimaced and scolded him, "Don't call me that while we're having sex. I've told you that before."Returning his full attention to the wings, Dean began to ever so lightly tug on them with one hand while he used the other to touch the glands and nubs of the wing. Each action caused Gabriel to shudder and in the space of minutes come repeatedly. Gotta love an angel refractory period. As in they barely had one. After a while dean turned his attention to the rest of his lover's body. Biting, licking and kissing every inch of it before ending at Gabriel's very lovely hole. Dean kissed it before he began to lick around the edges, teasing him until he began to beg. Just the way Dean liked him. Which is why Dean rewarded him by thrusting his tongue into the lovely tight hole of his lover and began to thrust it in and out until finally Gabriel couldn't take it any more and pulled Dean up while flipping over.
"Now Deano, your gonna fuck me or your going to be stuck in a state of constant arousal until your time has come, the long way. Your choice."Dean smirked, wrapped Gabriel's legs around him and thrust home.
Hours or maybe days later, Dean wasn't sure but he did know it was time to go. He didn't want to but he was done being selfish now and he knew it was over. As he had wanted he had gotten more time with Gabriel, had fucked Gabriel, been fucked by Gabriel and had made love to him. The last time they had frantic frenetic sex that was bordering on desperate as Dean knew it was goodbye and Gabriel suspected. Now it was time to collect the ash if possible and collect his brother and wait for Cas to pop them home. Well, not home. Dean was willing to admit that home was with Gabriel if only in his head. It was time to return to his time and gank the bitch Eve and hope her death wouldn't be like the last time they killed a bible name,aka Lilith.Time to return to his questionable relationship with Cas and his whatever with Balthazar. Time to go back to the life of never ending fighting, lies and pain. It was simply time.
"Gabe."Gabriel rolled over and looked at Dean and said it for him."It's time, I know...Want to tell me why you called me in this time and not in your time?"Dean knew that it would do no good but he still had to try, just as he tried with his mother even of it meant his death, Sam's death. Or rather never being born. He told Gabriel everything and watched the devastating expression appear on his face at being told his own brother killed him. Dean wasn't surprised that Gabriel quickly snapped his fingers and they were dressed and no longer in the field they had spent who knows how long in. Gabriel was going to run from the information and probably make himself forget as Dean didn't think he would be able to handle it. So he was quick to grab Gabriel for one last kiss and an admittance he had never made to anyone."I love you, Gabriel.Loki. Both...I'm sorry I let you die. I..Goodbye."And with that Dean turned away from Gabriel and walked forever away from him, each step costing Dean a part of his heart. This was truly goodbye
Chapter 2: Problems and Reunited Once Again
Summary:
Dean returns to his own time and faces Eve with an unexpected surprise at the end
Upon returning to town and learning that the sheriff and deputy were dead, Dean was turned into the sheriff. Which was practically a wet dream come true. All in all it was a good day, he may have lost Gabriel again in a way but he had also been able to say goodbye to him, he was living out his childhood fantasy by being in the west and he had been made sheriff. Finch may have killed the men but Dean decided that for once it was all worth it. Gabriel was worth so much more to him then two men after saving so many. Even with the fact that Finch was now gone and once Sam got back with the Colt he began to ask what the Hell was going on. It had been worth it.
When they were jerked back into their time and Dean saw Cas, some of his happiness and contentedness was taking away. Dean moved to Cas's side and hovered over him feeling helpless as Bobby explained what had happened as did Sam. After several long moments of staring, Dean grabbed Cas's hand and guided him up to his room. Once there Dean carefully laid Castiel down on the bed and just curled around him. Deeply ashamed of what he had done to his lover, he had risked Cas's life to get time with Gabriel. In more than one way he had betrayed Cas and he didn't know how to fix it.
"Dean, what is on your mind? I can sense you are troubled...If its about not getting the ash, its fine. When I can I will search for a phoenix and smite it for you and collect the ashes.There is no need for you to feel guilty over any of this. I sent you back willing and what Rachel said..It was all lies. I happily help you even if...I haven't had as much time with you as I would like...What I said before is true, I'd much rather be with you then anywhere else. Never doubt that, Dean...No matter what happens, what you disc....No matter what happens, know that there is not a place or a person I'd rather be with. You make me happy and there is not a single thing I wouldn't be willing to do for you." Every word was driving a stake into Dean and thus he didn't listen carefully to ever word, which would have saved him later on.
"I know,Cas. I just....Its nothing. I'm just sorry that your..sister betrayed you and you got hurt. I hate it when you get hurt, no matter how...I would never hurt you, in any way if I could avoid it."And now he can. There was no reason other than his guilty to tell Cas the real reason for the trip to the past and his guilt was not a reason to hurt his lover. So Dean would keep what he had done to himself and make it up to him."Cas, I want to..make you feel better. Are you up for it?"
"While there is no need for you to make me feel better..I would greatly enjoy being with you as always."That said, Cas pulled Dean down to him and kissed him tenderly. Dean realized that it was time to let Gabriel go, clinging to him had almost cost him what he had now. It was the Winchester way to hold on to the past and ignore the present to such a degree that they had nothing but ghosts. His father had done it and in the end it left him alone till the day he died. Dean would not do the same. Gabriel was dead and Castiel wasn't. Cas loved him and while it was not the same, Dean loved him as well. He even cared about Balthazar to a certain extent.
A part of Dean though wished that he could see their wings as for some reason he had never been able to. And since he was unwilling to tell anyone that he could see and touch Gabriel's, he couldn't exactly just ask Cas. Not to mention Dean was worried that it would hurt Cas that he couldn't see his wings. It might be some angel thing like intense bond after all and to tell Cas that he was not as connected to him..It was not something that Dean could ever do to him. He had said goodbye to Gabriel and he would keep to that. He would give his all to Cas and to a lesser extent Balthazar.
So he turned he complete attention to Cas and worshiped his body until Cas was nothing more than a quivering mess of an angel begging for more. It took a while before Dean gave him more and when he did it was perfect. Entering Cas was like coming home, as it always is. The two of them came together, something they rarely manage to do as normally Dean lasts longer than the still inexperienced Cas. Afterward they lay together, wrapped around each other to such a degree that every single part of them were touching. It was nice, not cuddling of course as Dean didn't do cuddling but it was peaceful. Cas started to kinda pet his hair and Dean was about to scold him when he realized it did kinda feel good and as no one was there to see it, he just relaxed into his lover's touch. Until Cas suddenly stiffened and Dean jerked up and looked around for danger but found none.
Turning back to Cas he was about to demand an explanation when Cas spoke before he could."Its Balthazar. He wants to be let in." As Cas seemed hesitant, Dean had to ask,"Do you think you can trust him? He's done some pretty..stupid, douchbag things...Of course some you approved of."
Cas sighed,"I have apologized repeatedly about using you as a bait..I knew you would not be in any true danger and....I don't know..I thought I could trust Rachel...There was a time before we met that I would go to him whenever I had free time and we would just be...He..Anael once called us twins, I didn't get that reference until I spent t more time down here but it really was true..He is certainly the only one that I would allow anywhere near you but...He had his own agenda now and I am unsure what that means in the long run....But for now I believe he can be trusted."Dean looks at Cas and sees that he is sure of that so he just shrugs.
"Then let him in. He can heal you completely, right."Cas nods and disappears, presumable to take the anti-angel sigil briefly to let Balthazar in. Almost immediately after, they both popped back into the room and Balthazar ended up in his lap with a,"Hello,darling. What have you been up too?"Dean rolled his eyes and tried to shove the idiot off his lap but of course he could not budge the annoying angel. Balthazar just grinned and ground down, causing Dean to start to harden and to grab Balthazar and kiss him furiously. It swiftly became more as clothes was snapped away and the three of them crammed together onto the bed.Soon Dean was thrusting into Balthazar while Cas thrust into him. They moved as one in perfect sync, before he climaxed Dean pushed his body so it was flush against Cas. Desperate to feel every inch of Cas's body as he reached behind him to grab Cas head and kissed him passionately. Needing the connection as he came, followed closely by Cas in him and Balthazar on him.
Dean collapsed onto Balthazar, completely wrung out by all the sex he had. Balthazar laughed while Cas just smiled and held Dean, content to spend this quite time with his mate and his friend. Even though he really should get back to the War, he couldn't bring himself to just yet. Still there was one thing he could do while he was here." Balthazar, do you know where I could find a phoenix?" Dean smiled at him as he drifted of into an exhausted sleep. Balthazar looked at his brother at that rather odd question. Why in their Father's name would Cassie want a phoenix?
"I have no idea, Cassie. Its not like they are very useful..They wouldn't help you against Raphael unless you want to try to burn Raph to death. It'd be an interesting strategy and not one that anyone would ever suspect but....Ahh. Eve. Well,that is a good strategy. Get some of that in her and she gone for good. The Winchesters strike another big fish off the list. We should probably mount this one on the wall."Which of course caused Cas to frown while he tilted his head in confusion as he tried to figure out how they could mount Eve on the wall. The only mount he knew of outside of horses was a sex position that Dean was fond of and he highly doubted that was what Balthazar was referring to. If it was, then Cas would immediately not allow his brother anywhere near Dean as no one was allowed to betray Dean by laying with another. He was being betrayed enough by Cas as it was for Cas to allow another to do thusly. Even his brother.
In the end Cas was able to track down a phoenix, ironically it was Finch. He smited him and gave Dean the ashes. Dean made the ashes into bullets while swallowing some for insurance. Then they started to track her down and ended up in a small town in Oregon .Balthazar decided to tag along for th Hell of it. Long story short, the two angels became utterly useless as their powers were somehow bound so Dean spent most of his time worrying about them while trying to figure out what the Hell was going on. There was odd creatures everywhere, people were dead left and right and his angel lovers were suddenly powerless.Not of it made any sense at all and he was annoyed by it. Why couldn't anything go easy anymore? It had been years since anything was easy, since he had collected Sam from Stanford. After that everything went FUBAR, left and right things seem to get more and more complicated. Just two years ago he had helped avert the Apocalypse after all. What was with his life lately? That's all he really wanted to know.
Seeing Cas covered in blood after he did who knows what to the creature made him want to scream , added to it was when Cas didn't understand why he needed to get the kids to safety. Cas was changing and Dean didn't like it, he didn't like it at all. Gabriel was gone and he knew that he was slowly losing Cas to something he just didn't know..This war was changing Cas in a way the last one didn't. Which considering what Cas had all undergone last time, you'd think it would have been the other was around. Still, now wasn't the time to face the new issues he had with his lover. Cas stayed while Balthazar oddly enough stayed with them. Simply saying that something about all this made him uneasy.
The confrontation with Eve went wrong from the get go in the diner and Dean was actually wondering if they were all about to die.Learning that Crowley was alive was a blow he wasn't sure he would ever recover from. Especially as upon looking at Cas, he saw no surprise, no suspicion, no nothing. Dean knew his lover better then he knew anyone else save for Sammy and Gabriel. And so with a devastating , he knew that Cas had known that Crowley was still alive.
Still, that knowledge was put aside when Eve focused on him and prepared to bit him. To turn him into one of her creatures but was in actuality killing herself. Instead of biting him though, she was setting flying by...Quick turn to the door and Dean's breath caught. For standing there was Gabriel. Dean was so stunned that he completely missed Eve's spectacular death by way of a chainsaw,an anvil and a rabbit. Slowly Dean approached Gabriel until they were barely an inch apart and they simply stared into each others eyes.
Both were completely forgetting everyone else with them as they didn't matter, the only thing that mattered was that they were once again reunited.
Dean was the first to speak and it was one word,"How?"
"Simple really. After I spent a few decades running from what you had told me, I faced it and decided what to do...I needed to 'die' that day otherwise you wouldn't come back to tell me. So I..faked it.Lucy didn't kill me, he killed another copy of me.. He didn't teach me EVERYTHING I know...I love you, Dean. Nothing will ever take me from you, not even my idiot of a brother." Dean smiled and pulled Gabriel to him as they kissed for the first time in a 'century'. Once again it was like coming home.
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Chapter 1: Reunion
It wasn't anything he really planned but it had been in the back of Dean's mind when he suggested this little trip in time. Enough so that he grabbed all the ingredients needed to summon Loki, enough so that the moment Sam was gone, Dean performed the ritual. For one moment in time being selfish as to leave the potential victims of the phoenix unguarded. Dean needed to do this, needed to risk all to do this. To warn the one being he had loved without duty or reserve. The one death Dean would be willing to sacrifice everything for, even the only way to kill Eve. For Gabriel, Dean would gladly allow the world to die. If only to see him one more time, even if Dean can't save him from Lucifer. Just to see him again one last time would be enough, would be worth it. To have a chance to say goodbye.
Dean knew better than to tell Sam that or even think it when he had been in Cas's presence though as both would have stopped him. And at this point, Dean doesn't truly care what either one of them thinks. Sam, well as much as it pains him Dean can admit that they will never be as they were before Ruby, before Hell. There will always be something separating them, this last year with Robo!Sam didn't help it any and Dean is willing to accept it. Sam isn't the brother he raised and never will be again, to much had changed. As for Castiel.
Cas hadn't been the same since Lucifer killed him and Dean isn't entirely sure what to do about it anymore. He had allowed Cas into his bed and into his heart to a certain degree but he doesn't trust him, not like he once had. The fact that on occasion Balthazar shared their bed just made it all the more..odd. Dean knew that Cas was keeping a huge thing from him, probably something that would destroy what they had and when it was time, when Dean learned it..He would have to decide how to react. How to either kill Cas or forgive him and sadly as time passed them by and still Cas didn't tell him, Dean feared there would be no true choice. Only death and it terrifies Dean so much so that for the first time in his life he doesn't demand the truth from Cas.
Performing the ritual, Dean waited for Gabriel to show up. Knowing that it would only be a matter of time, that while the ritual could not force Gabriel to appear but that curiosity would see Gabriel come. That after so long someone was summoning 'Loki', it would surprise Gabriel enough to come. It only took an hour for Gabriel to show up or rather Loki. For looking at him, Dean knew it was Loki and not Gabriel before him. The side of Gabriel that he had rarely if ever allowed Dean to see. The side of himself that he had been forced to become to hide from Heaven, the side that he eventually began to enjoy. Filled with rage, blood-lust and never ending hunger.The Pagan side and Gabriel didn't let Dean see it for fear that it would drive Dean away. And while Dean wasn't comfortable with it, he accepted it as a part of his lover. Accepted that once Gabriel had eaten humans accepted sacrifice, had behaved like a pagan god. He wasn't happy with it but he accepted.
"Well, what have we here? A mortal that wants to play with Gods, now that is either incredibly brave of you or foolish. You are one.....WHAT?"Dean felt the familiar Grace of his lover touching him, his body and soul. Feeling him, finding the truth."Now isn't that interesting. A time travel and by an Angel's hand at that. I assume its for a very interesting reason as time is not something to be trifled with, even by Heaven's standards. And such a long way...Your soul, your blood.....Your of the Line. Your...The Righteous Man." Gabriel breathed out those three words as he stiffened, faced with the future reality of his brothers battle. Michael's Vessel was standing before him, a century early."You know who I am, don't you?"
Dean nodded as he approached Gabriel, not stopping until the entire lengths of their bodies are touching. Making them as one as they can be with clothes on and soul/Grace not touching. Dean quietly whispered the words, to overwhelmed to anything else,"You are Gabriel, Archangel, Messenger and left-hand of God...You are Mine. My lover....And I have missed you so much."Dean grasped Gabriel's face and devoured his mouth, kissing him with almost two years of bent-up passion. Neither Lisa or Castiel could ever match up to the passion, the desire and..love that was between the two of them. They paled in comparsion even though he loved them both. After a moment of hesitation, Gabriel kissed back and felt the echoes of his Grace in him. And that of another Angel but nowhere near strong enough to be Michael's. It was not yet time for Michael to take him then.
Gabriel wasn't sure what he was doing as he stripped the Right... quick look in his mind, Dean of all his clothes and lowered him to the ground but he did not care. He had never intended to take one of the Vessel's as lover, only intended to check them out when it was time. Yet he obviously had taken Dean to bed and was doing so again and couldn't bring himself to care. While Dean was just desperate to feel Gabriel as he knew they didn't have time, soon he'd have to get back. Deal with the phoenix if it was still here, explain to Sam if it wasn't and all before the 24 hours were up. So little time."Hush, little one.I've stopped time. Not about to be interrupted by a sibling while doing this. Not even seconds will go by for what I plan to take hours. Now pay attention to me."Gabriel then began to lick his way done Dean's body and all Dean could do was moan.
Especially when Gabriel took Dean's cock into his mouth and showed him that a century did not make him a better lover. He was just a great lover whenever and wherever. After making Dean have a screaming orgasm, Gabriel crawled up his body and kissed him. Sharing his taste between them. Then with a snap, Dean was hard again but this time he had no intention of just laying there and 'think of England.' He wanted to make Gabriel scream, a not so easy task. To do so though he needed to get on top and unlike his Gabriel, Dean doubted he could just ask and be granted it. So he set about to surprise him by grabbing one of his wings and stroking the glands between the feathers.All of which caused Gabriel to arch almost completely off him and to shout in both shocked surprise and pleasure.
"You can see and touch my wings.Boy are you one hell of a surprise, kiddo." Dean grimaced and scolded him, "Don't call me that while we're having sex. I've told you that before."Returning his full attention to the wings, Dean began to ever so lightly tug on them with one hand while he used the other to touch the glands and nubs of the wing. Each action caused Gabriel to shudder and in the space of minutes come repeatedly. Gotta love an angel refractory period. As in they barely had one. After a while dean turned his attention to the rest of his lover's body. Biting, licking and kissing every inch of it before ending at Gabriel's very lovely hole. Dean kissed it before he began to lick around the edges, teasing him until he began to beg. Just the way Dean liked him. Which is why Dean rewarded him by thrusting his tongue into the lovely tight hole of his lover and began to thrust it in and out until finally Gabriel couldn't take it any more and pulled Dean up while flipping over.
"Now Deano, your gonna fuck me or your going to be stuck in a state of constant arousal until your time has come, the long way. Your choice."Dean smirked, wrapped Gabriel's legs around him and thrust home.
Hours or maybe days later, Dean wasn't sure but he did know it was time to go. He didn't want to but he was done being selfish now and he knew it was over. As he had wanted he had gotten more time with Gabriel, had fucked Gabriel, been fucked by Gabriel and had made love to him. The last time they had frantic frenetic sex that was bordering on desperate as Dean knew it was goodbye and Gabriel suspected. Now it was time to collect the ash if possible and collect his brother and wait for Cas to pop them home. Well, not home. Dean was willing to admit that home was with Gabriel if only in his head. It was time to return to his time and gank the bitch Eve and hope her death wouldn't be like the last time they killed a bible name,aka Lilith.Time to return to his questionable relationship with Cas and his whatever with Balthazar. Time to go back to the life of never ending fighting, lies and pain. It was simply time.
"Gabe."Gabriel rolled over and looked at Dean and said it for him."It's time, I know...Want to tell me why you called me in this time and not in your time?"Dean knew that it would do no good but he still had to try, just as he tried with his mother even of it meant his death, Sam's death. Or rather never being born. He told Gabriel everything and watched the devastating expression appear on his face at being told his own brother killed him. Dean wasn't surprised that Gabriel quickly snapped his fingers and they were dressed and no longer in the field they had spent who knows how long in. Gabriel was going to run from the information and probably make himself forget as Dean didn't think he would be able to handle it. So he was quick to grab Gabriel for one last kiss and an admittance he had never made to anyone."I love you, Gabriel.Loki. Both...I'm sorry I let you die. I..Goodbye."And with that Dean turned away from Gabriel and walked forever away from him, each step costing Dean a part of his heart. This was truly goodbye
Chapter 2: Problems and Reunited Once Again
Summary:
Dean returns to his own time and faces Eve with an unexpected surprise at the end
Upon returning to town and learning that the sheriff and deputy were dead, Dean was turned into the sheriff. Which was practically a wet dream come true. All in all it was a good day, he may have lost Gabriel again in a way but he had also been able to say goodbye to him, he was living out his childhood fantasy by being in the west and he had been made sheriff. Finch may have killed the men but Dean decided that for once it was all worth it. Gabriel was worth so much more to him then two men after saving so many. Even with the fact that Finch was now gone and once Sam got back with the Colt he began to ask what the Hell was going on. It had been worth it.
When they were jerked back into their time and Dean saw Cas, some of his happiness and contentedness was taking away. Dean moved to Cas's side and hovered over him feeling helpless as Bobby explained what had happened as did Sam. After several long moments of staring, Dean grabbed Cas's hand and guided him up to his room. Once there Dean carefully laid Castiel down on the bed and just curled around him. Deeply ashamed of what he had done to his lover, he had risked Cas's life to get time with Gabriel. In more than one way he had betrayed Cas and he didn't know how to fix it.
"Dean, what is on your mind? I can sense you are troubled...If its about not getting the ash, its fine. When I can I will search for a phoenix and smite it for you and collect the ashes.There is no need for you to feel guilty over any of this. I sent you back willing and what Rachel said..It was all lies. I happily help you even if...I haven't had as much time with you as I would like...What I said before is true, I'd much rather be with you then anywhere else. Never doubt that, Dean...No matter what happens, what you disc....No matter what happens, know that there is not a place or a person I'd rather be with. You make me happy and there is not a single thing I wouldn't be willing to do for you." Every word was driving a stake into Dean and thus he didn't listen carefully to ever word, which would have saved him later on.
"I know,Cas. I just....Its nothing. I'm just sorry that your..sister betrayed you and you got hurt. I hate it when you get hurt, no matter how...I would never hurt you, in any way if I could avoid it."And now he can. There was no reason other than his guilty to tell Cas the real reason for the trip to the past and his guilt was not a reason to hurt his lover. So Dean would keep what he had done to himself and make it up to him."Cas, I want to..make you feel better. Are you up for it?"
"While there is no need for you to make me feel better..I would greatly enjoy being with you as always."That said, Cas pulled Dean down to him and kissed him tenderly. Dean realized that it was time to let Gabriel go, clinging to him had almost cost him what he had now. It was the Winchester way to hold on to the past and ignore the present to such a degree that they had nothing but ghosts. His father had done it and in the end it left him alone till the day he died. Dean would not do the same. Gabriel was dead and Castiel wasn't. Cas loved him and while it was not the same, Dean loved him as well. He even cared about Balthazar to a certain extent.
A part of Dean though wished that he could see their wings as for some reason he had never been able to. And since he was unwilling to tell anyone that he could see and touch Gabriel's, he couldn't exactly just ask Cas. Not to mention Dean was worried that it would hurt Cas that he couldn't see his wings. It might be some angel thing like intense bond after all and to tell Cas that he was not as connected to him..It was not something that Dean could ever do to him. He had said goodbye to Gabriel and he would keep to that. He would give his all to Cas and to a lesser extent Balthazar.
So he turned he complete attention to Cas and worshiped his body until Cas was nothing more than a quivering mess of an angel begging for more. It took a while before Dean gave him more and when he did it was perfect. Entering Cas was like coming home, as it always is. The two of them came together, something they rarely manage to do as normally Dean lasts longer than the still inexperienced Cas. Afterward they lay together, wrapped around each other to such a degree that every single part of them were touching. It was nice, not cuddling of course as Dean didn't do cuddling but it was peaceful. Cas started to kinda pet his hair and Dean was about to scold him when he realized it did kinda feel good and as no one was there to see it, he just relaxed into his lover's touch. Until Cas suddenly stiffened and Dean jerked up and looked around for danger but found none.
Turning back to Cas he was about to demand an explanation when Cas spoke before he could."Its Balthazar. He wants to be let in." As Cas seemed hesitant, Dean had to ask,"Do you think you can trust him? He's done some pretty..stupid, douchbag things...Of course some you approved of."
Cas sighed,"I have apologized repeatedly about using you as a bait..I knew you would not be in any true danger and....I don't know..I thought I could trust Rachel...There was a time before we met that I would go to him whenever I had free time and we would just be...He..Anael once called us twins, I didn't get that reference until I spent t more time down here but it really was true..He is certainly the only one that I would allow anywhere near you but...He had his own agenda now and I am unsure what that means in the long run....But for now I believe he can be trusted."Dean looks at Cas and sees that he is sure of that so he just shrugs.
"Then let him in. He can heal you completely, right."Cas nods and disappears, presumable to take the anti-angel sigil briefly to let Balthazar in. Almost immediately after, they both popped back into the room and Balthazar ended up in his lap with a,"Hello,darling. What have you been up too?"Dean rolled his eyes and tried to shove the idiot off his lap but of course he could not budge the annoying angel. Balthazar just grinned and ground down, causing Dean to start to harden and to grab Balthazar and kiss him furiously. It swiftly became more as clothes was snapped away and the three of them crammed together onto the bed.Soon Dean was thrusting into Balthazar while Cas thrust into him. They moved as one in perfect sync, before he climaxed Dean pushed his body so it was flush against Cas. Desperate to feel every inch of Cas's body as he reached behind him to grab Cas head and kissed him passionately. Needing the connection as he came, followed closely by Cas in him and Balthazar on him.
Dean collapsed onto Balthazar, completely wrung out by all the sex he had. Balthazar laughed while Cas just smiled and held Dean, content to spend this quite time with his mate and his friend. Even though he really should get back to the War, he couldn't bring himself to just yet. Still there was one thing he could do while he was here." Balthazar, do you know where I could find a phoenix?" Dean smiled at him as he drifted of into an exhausted sleep. Balthazar looked at his brother at that rather odd question. Why in their Father's name would Cassie want a phoenix?
"I have no idea, Cassie. Its not like they are very useful..They wouldn't help you against Raphael unless you want to try to burn Raph to death. It'd be an interesting strategy and not one that anyone would ever suspect but....Ahh. Eve. Well,that is a good strategy. Get some of that in her and she gone for good. The Winchesters strike another big fish off the list. We should probably mount this one on the wall."Which of course caused Cas to frown while he tilted his head in confusion as he tried to figure out how they could mount Eve on the wall. The only mount he knew of outside of horses was a sex position that Dean was fond of and he highly doubted that was what Balthazar was referring to. If it was, then Cas would immediately not allow his brother anywhere near Dean as no one was allowed to betray Dean by laying with another. He was being betrayed enough by Cas as it was for Cas to allow another to do thusly. Even his brother.
In the end Cas was able to track down a phoenix, ironically it was Finch. He smited him and gave Dean the ashes. Dean made the ashes into bullets while swallowing some for insurance. Then they started to track her down and ended up in a small town in Oregon .Balthazar decided to tag along for th Hell of it. Long story short, the two angels became utterly useless as their powers were somehow bound so Dean spent most of his time worrying about them while trying to figure out what the Hell was going on. There was odd creatures everywhere, people were dead left and right and his angel lovers were suddenly powerless.Not of it made any sense at all and he was annoyed by it. Why couldn't anything go easy anymore? It had been years since anything was easy, since he had collected Sam from Stanford. After that everything went FUBAR, left and right things seem to get more and more complicated. Just two years ago he had helped avert the Apocalypse after all. What was with his life lately? That's all he really wanted to know.
Seeing Cas covered in blood after he did who knows what to the creature made him want to scream , added to it was when Cas didn't understand why he needed to get the kids to safety. Cas was changing and Dean didn't like it, he didn't like it at all. Gabriel was gone and he knew that he was slowly losing Cas to something he just didn't know..This war was changing Cas in a way the last one didn't. Which considering what Cas had all undergone last time, you'd think it would have been the other was around. Still, now wasn't the time to face the new issues he had with his lover. Cas stayed while Balthazar oddly enough stayed with them. Simply saying that something about all this made him uneasy.
The confrontation with Eve went wrong from the get go in the diner and Dean was actually wondering if they were all about to die.Learning that Crowley was alive was a blow he wasn't sure he would ever recover from. Especially as upon looking at Cas, he saw no surprise, no suspicion, no nothing. Dean knew his lover better then he knew anyone else save for Sammy and Gabriel. And so with a devastating , he knew that Cas had known that Crowley was still alive.
Still, that knowledge was put aside when Eve focused on him and prepared to bit him. To turn him into one of her creatures but was in actuality killing herself. Instead of biting him though, she was setting flying by...Quick turn to the door and Dean's breath caught. For standing there was Gabriel. Dean was so stunned that he completely missed Eve's spectacular death by way of a chainsaw,an anvil and a rabbit. Slowly Dean approached Gabriel until they were barely an inch apart and they simply stared into each others eyes.
Both were completely forgetting everyone else with them as they didn't matter, the only thing that mattered was that they were once again reunited.
Dean was the first to speak and it was one word,"How?"
"Simple really. After I spent a few decades running from what you had told me, I faced it and decided what to do...I needed to 'die' that day otherwise you wouldn't come back to tell me. So I..faked it.Lucy didn't kill me, he killed another copy of me.. He didn't teach me EVERYTHING I know...I love you, Dean. Nothing will ever take me from you, not even my idiot of a brother." Dean smiled and pulled Gabriel to him as they kissed for the first time in a 'century'. Once again it was like coming home.
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